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[Jul. 31st, 2006|09:30 pm] |
Wow, been about.....that long since i wrote anything.
Well where to start. Well, a friend of mine had her baby about 4 months ago, she named him Ayden. Unfortunatly the fathers an asshole. He cares only about the baby by how much sex he can get from my friend. i could go on for quite a while on tha subject, so lets move on shall we.
So yeah, life in a nutshell, work, sleep, some computer time, making plans i never can keep cuz of more work, and oh yeah work.
So as of next week im going to start taking more time off to spend with my friends (yes you). And yes i plan to go for drinks with u, u know who u are. we can find a pub on roncenvalles (yes i spell like a baboon)
So yeah, read Terry Goodkinds new book Phantom, it was amazing, just like the rest of them, though a little short. I recomend Terry Goodkind's series; Sword of truth series. to everyone who likes to read, and likes all the grusome details, from the slow torture, to the brutal killing, to the rape of innocent women, all pact into 11 books of pure amazingly brutal liturature.
Wow what a book rant. (im a nerd, but a damn good looking one)
So im planning to go rock climbing again, looking for people who like to rock climb then go to a bar afterward. have some fun.
well im done for now, starting to fall to sleep.
bla
Well back again. So theres someone ive been talking to a lot, she talks to me too. I know that we could never be together, but u know what its like to just wonder sometimes, think of the past what happened before, even if it was just sitting there watching stupid tv shows.
Then theres another person i met a long time ago only like once or twice that i liked and thought was awesome, we never really talked myuch but i have her number and of course being me im to nervous to call her, should i, should i not (thats not a question dont answer it!!!!)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i love hell's kitchen, its so Fucking funny. especially sara always being called a cow!
anyone else watch house today. Phyco lady trys to kill husband with gold, ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thats a new one, i like i like. |
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[May. 8th, 2006|10:15 am] |
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| | Rosetta Stoned - Tool | ] |
well its been a very long time since i wrote here. why havent i well because i didn't think anyone would care. Well i guess everyone was right, everyone said i would just get hurt and well its happened but the worst part is that its my best friend, MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND! what really bothers me is that no one had the balls to tell me and i had to figure out on my own. Mainly i feel guilty for hurting someone i do trully care about.
So besides the betrayal of my friend of 10 years im doing pretty good i guess. i mean im shuned up it my room, with no where to go or no one to talk to. yay!!!
im ranting again. God i need a drink!!!!
Anyone want to do something around the 20th get plasterd, party, movie, orgy, walk around, anything???????? Takers??? Any hands out there?????? Let me see some hands people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! going....going................ |
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[Sep. 18th, 2005|06:03 pm] |
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i walk a journey, i sail a tale, now i run an endless trail... |
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| I GOT THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|12:47 am] |
HOLY SHIT!!! i got two system of a down floor tickets for a hundred bucks, concerts going to kick ass.
Well i know theres a bunch of u that hate me right now or dont want to talk to me, well im sorry but im not going to change anything in my life right now. its pittiful how everyone else has to somehow put their needs above everyone elses, how about everone be equal and be happy for what other people have.
well im going to go sleep, very busy week, i may be buying a Python later this week!!! |
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[Aug. 26th, 2005|08:19 pm] |
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well i havn't written in a while. everyones wondering how i am, well to be honest im happier then i have been in a very very long time.
Now on to those people who dont agree with me or upset by what ive done, well i dont give a shit what u think, i dont care what your feelings are about it, if your mad oh well, im happy i know what i wanted and i know why i have been so unhappy and i know now why so many things were bothering me. so basically im happy, and no matter what u say wont change anything.
Now on to those who dont know, well lets just say it will pissa lot of u off and im sorry, but im happy and it was mutual and its been coming for a long time, if no ones seen it wel im sorry. nobody ever took the time to get to know me, but someone did..........
well i have someone to text:D sorry for those who are pissed off, butu obviosly dont care if im hapy or not, and i know my grammer sux, TOOOOOOO BADDDDDD
later folks |
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| LIES!!!!! |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|11:28 pm] |
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This was a conversation me and my best frind skippy had at work while doing nothing. Its pretty aukward, but its the way we are and the way we think and see the world and certain aspects.
"so what do you think of lieing?" skippy asked me
"that its stupid, wrong and needless"
'not even velvet lies?'
'I dont know what they are' i replied
'A women asks you what you think of her new dress. you look at her and think: "It makes you look fat and dowdy." Do you say it? or do you find a velvet lie, like..."What a fine colour it is" or "you look wonderful"?'
'I will not lie. i would say i did not like the dress. not that anyone has ever asked me for my opinion.'
'Theres a suprise. I see now why your not known as patrick the lover. very well, let me ask another question. Do you agree that in war it is necessary to deceive one's enemy? For example, to make him think you are weaker than you are, in order to lure him into a foolhardy assault?'
'Of coarse' i answered.
'Then it is fine to lie to an enemy?'
'Ah man you remind me of Mr Piggot. He loved these debates, and would twist words and ideas round and round until everything i believed in sounded like the grandest nonsense.he should have been a politician. I would say that evil should always be countered. ho would say "Ah but what is evil for one man may be good for another." i remember once we discussed the execution of a murderer. He maintained that in killing the man we were commiting an evil as great as the convicted man. He said that perhaps the killer might one day have a son or duaghter, who would be great and good, and change the world for the better. In killing him we might have robbed the world of a saviour.'
'Perhaps he was right' said skippy
'Perhaps he was. but if we followed that philosophy completly we would never punish anyone, for any crime. You could argue that to lock the killer away, rather than hanging him, might prevent him from meeting the woman who would have given birth to that child. so what do we do? Free him? No. A man who wilfully takes the life of another forfiets hos own life. Anything less makes a mockery of justice. I always enjoyed listening to Mr. Piggot ranting and railing against the ways of the world. He could make you think black was white, night was day and sweet was sour. It was good entertainment. But that is all it was. Would i decieve an enemy? Yes. Would i deceive a friend? No. How do i justify this? I don't.' I replied
'I think i understand,' said skippy. 'if a friend in an ugly dress asks your opinion, you'll give it honestly and break her heart. But if an enemy in an ugly dress comes before you, you'll tell her she looks like a queen.'
I burst into laughter and replied 'If your offering to wear a dress for me, well i know you would look like a queen, u have the jugs and damn, those legs.'
then he chased me....i think he has some gay tendancies:P
well today was a wreck until some friends topped by to cheer me up, went and played pool with everyone, bought some drinks, did some other stuff, learned that for some reason all my friends respect me and view evertyhing i say with the highest regard and desire my opinion on things, feels great.
well i dont know what else to say, being alone right now is making the pain return... |
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[Aug. 19th, 2005|04:20 am] |
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I am to post this for Erica as she is unable to get to a computer at time being.
"I am trully sorry if i dampened anyone's time at the party. I'm so sorry Patrick"
Now im going away, if you need me, Im sorry, If you call me I wont answer, If its an emergency Im there in spirit, I just need to be gone for a while.
Im sorry erica, i broke my promise... |
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[Aug. 16th, 2005|02:08 am] |
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sometimes i just want to give up.....float down a river face down.....
think im going to go watch family guy, talk to u later:D |
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[Aug. 16th, 2005|01:42 am] |
 | You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.
Harry Potter | | 80% | Severus Snape | | 80% | Remus Lupin | | 80% | Albus Dumbledore | | 80% | Hermione Granger | | 75% | Draco Malfoy | | 65% | Sirius Black | | 65% | Ginny Weasley | | 60% | Ron Weasley | | 45% | Lord Voldemort | | 30% | </td>
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[Aug. 14th, 2005|01:14 am] |
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" One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my icons are pretty. Put this in your journal, and once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are " |
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[Aug. 12th, 2005|01:39 am] |
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i am a dissapointment to everyone, except one, which feels good.
why must i worry? i dont mean to, why must i? am i just to insecure? is it that im afraid of loosing everything again? why......
time to let people see me for me i guess, goodbye trusty barrier....
why does sex have to be the most important thing in a relationship? It isn't!!!!!! I know whats the most important so stop asking me about those things, |
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| Left out, left behind, shout out, end nigh |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|12:01 am] |
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| | opeth - Wreath | ] |
Im on the fucking brink, you don't understand how i feel
Hit my head off the sink, Im always just on your heel
This insational void, full of perpetual horrors
Dizzyness contorting every word, pain twisting every emotion
Crisp, dry, cracked.....the drops are to far
I..........can't......go.....on.....
(something i just thought up)
now to the fine point.
You people make me sick, you always want stuff from me, you always need something. but then when somethings going on you ignore me and leave me out of everything. You say your having a big party and everyones invited but then i find out about it the day after. You people are always telling me that you need me to get stuff for your fucking get togethers and your social gatherings but then you leave me behind like i dont matter. Well fuck you all, figure it all out for yourselfs now. Im sick of always being left out of everything and not being invited. Im sick of your fake interests in my life and your misbegoten feelings about me. Im doing things for myself now and people i love and care about now. If you want something from me show me that you deserve it because now ill only be helping those i care about and want to be there for. Not back stabbers and bastards who only care about who they're going to fuck next and how much money they can make on a bet.
ok well ive cooled down now for abour 30 minutes, feeling really depressed and need some comfort right now. dont you hate that feeling when your never invited somewhere or when your told that its a private family gathering but end up finding out everyone there wasnt even related? oh well, guess lifes shit bucket decided to place itself between my lap.
well last night after work i went to erica's and took her some soup, laugh all u want, and a crossword. It made her happy and i felt good about making her smile. We watched tv then i headed home. hope she gets well soon. talked to her for a while today, got her the opeth albums even the one that doesnt come out for 3 weeks. well today was horrible, probly got that from above, tomorow, probly just going to be as bad, everyones always so busy and has no time anymore. but thats alright i have my books and my music and a girl that cares about me and wants to know the real me, hope it doesnt scare her. havent seen nikki since the party but now i got her email so i should be able to talk to her and see how she is.
Well im going to go read or something, i dont feel like conversing, in english anyways.
be back eventually |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|11:51 am] |
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KMFDM!!!!!! Toronto, October 4th. 8PM at Pheonix Concert Theater. Tickets go on sale Saturday, 08/13/05 10:00 AM EDT (whoever wants to go reply to this!!!!!!)
Erica comes home today!!! YAY!!!!! dont know when she'll be back but hoping soon. |
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|11:04 am] |
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| | Rob Zombie - Superbeast | ] |
well yesterday i started work at 12, little drama, i opened the store at 12 it was supposed to be opened at 10, oh well they didnt tell me that!! wel i worked through the day and then erica met me at work:D. We went back to my place and we just sat on my couch and talked(and played with the orange kitty that thinks im fat!!!) we talked about a lot of stuff, more then we ever talked about before. Then cleo texted me and we called her on and off and after some more talking we headed to her new place. (I hate elevators!!!!!!!)
we all started walking towards young(bunch of people, cleo, me, erica, simon, some other girl, crista, and her boyfriend(which i thought was cool me and him talked for a while and got along, nobody noticed when we were walkin hand in hand though:(....) When we hit young me and Erica seperated from everyone else and got bubbletea then i took her home. She wasnt doing so great, i was so fucking worried and scared. Then my chest started doing that constricting thing again and i couldnt breath. I hope Erica's ok, I dont deserve her. i want to make her happy, shes so sad, i feel so useless, like theres nothing i can do.
i headed home after she got home, my chest was really bad, almost feel down the escalator cuzz it was fucking with my knees. but i got home all good and played pokemon,(i got my Sandshrew!!!!!!!)
now its mourning, had a rough night and now im here.....
Why would anyone put up with me and want to deal with me? (if anyone can answer please do)
well im going to go do stuff i always do which isnt anything at all. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2005|07:50 pm] |
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| | Iron maiden -The evil that men do | ] |
well its been a few days since i upsated. I finally told Erica what was bothering me, hope she doesnt think that im an idiot. well ive been working everyday as usual. On friday i went and baught 2 more swords, well one's wood, its a sparring sword, and the other is a ninja double set. Which is awesom(yes you can call me crazy im used to it). Then saturday came along, ugh had to go to work at 8, worked all day till 7:(. Then Erica met me as my shift ended:D. We went up to the subway to wait for Nikki to come. It sucks, what she's going through right now. I wanna be there for her, i know i dont know her that well but she's cool and i consider her a friend. But as i was saying i want to be there but i know the last thing she would want right now would be to be comforted by a guy and be around lots of them. But after she got to the eaton Centre we went to the LCBO, i went in to get Melon liquers and vodka, i spent 20ish minutes looking for it to discover that they were all out so i got blue liquers, i grabbed Polar ice vodka and was getting freaked out on for getting it,IT WAS THE SAME PRICE!!!!!!!. well after that we headed to daves house. we listened to music, cooked burgers/hotdogs(well Erica took over), looked at funny pics, played poker, and talked. After nikki hit the sack and everyone was going tobed so me an Erica were given th basement al to ourselves. we pushed a couch and a love seat together, which actually worked at making a bed(sordev). Dave kept coming down, hopefully he wasnt upset or anything with us being down there together. then we slept......
we woke up at like 8ish and went home. I went to Erica's house before work, we talked about some things, i hope shes feeling better. Then i headed to a very boring day at work where i discovered a broken fridge so basically my day todays been stressfull and tipsy if you get my meaning. now im at home and i hope to talk to Erica soon, wanna ask her something....
well im going to clean my room, shes coming over tomorow:D hope she doesnt cancel. But if she needs to she needs to and im not going to hold it against her.
well i may write something later and try to get some pics of my swords up. |
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[Jul. 26th, 2005|08:57 am] |
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Well can't write much at all right now besides yesterday was fun, i enjoyed it and charades was really fun(i suck, OMG DAVE doesn't get CUT!!!!!!). Oh and Skippy to inform you no i didn't get to ask her.
Me and Erica had a serious talk, I brought up a painful subject that really made her upset, i feel so worthless. I felt so bad on my way home. I really need to talk to her. I don;t know wether i should call her or not.
OMG OMG OMG OMG Erica acted out !XOBILE!!!!!! AHHHHHHH (if you have no clue where thats from, you shouldn't be breathing my air)
Well i have to head to work, ill write the full entry later tonight.
ps. I had to act out the Stroaks, imagine the horror. then i danced a jig!!!! |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|12:40 pm] |
| Which Star Wars Jedi/Sith are you? Emperor Palpatine Well, well, well, fancy yourself a bit of a rat-bastard do we? You are the most charismatic of the Sith, well, at least until you got your face burned. You are manipulative and cunning, and your arrogance can be kept in check. Unfortunately, no one else but you can handle the amount of evil stored in that dark heart of yours, so eventually your apprentice can’t handle it and kicks your ass. Oops. Want some irony? You killed your master, and your apprentice killed you. Oh, you are also a nice parallel with Hitler, you’re just missing a moustache. 
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|12:14 pm] |
| What metal band are you? Opeth You are Opeth! You are very poetic with your lyrics, and your music flows like a waterfall. Your emotions change from angry to sad very quickly. Some people don't like you because you can sound too depressing. You're one of the best metal bands in the world, and you worship your fans! 
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